Torture.

You knw when your face is full of acne or even having th slightest bit of imperfection. &U decided t have facial.
It sounds so skin-pampering just by mentioning th word "facial".

but its definately not wut u're expecting or imagining.

Its simply just. Horror.
Lols, seriously u need a pretty high level of pain endurance.

I've like gone through two sessions of that so far.
Its crazily painful when they use those tools or wuteva equipments u call them t extract the impurities , dirt & excess oil that causes blemishes on your facial skin like worms in apples.

Okay maybe not that disgusting.

&Its ard 2hrs per session.
Without fear, I have t sacrifice my tears each time i attempt t endure the so called "skin therapy".

Pondering on wut contributed t these facial imperfections I'm currently dealing with?

1)Late night sleep for 4years.
2)Sleep deprivation or wut u call sleep debt, due t inadequate hours of sleep.
2)Munching on food that r unhealthy.
3)Not putting in enough effort t maintain consistency in my exercising routine.
4)Not discipline enough t stop eating & doing wut is harmful t myself.

Now great. Im suffering just t regain a condition of my face i had 10 years back then.
Haha wanna knw smth better?
I just ate 4 pineapple tarts.
Killers.
Food existed on earth nt only for a purpose t keep me alive.
It was t keep me more than sufficiently Alive t make me feel guilty for myself.
thumbs up for that.

I have another appointment nxt week before Cny.
&I'm lost whether its meant t be smth i should consider myself happy with or not.

I gotta change my bad habits! I MUST.
But its hard.
So hard & tough for me that i feel I'm falling back from my goals tht i wished i could achieve.

3.18am-
Feeling helpless.